Discouraged and Depressed by Day 2?!

So, it is day 2 of my happiness project...and I am already feeling discouraged. While I did fairly well with WW yesterday, I still woke up with a stomach ache and just overall felt crappy. I know that this journey is going to be full of lots of ups and downs, but I thought I would be feeling much more motivated at the beginning.  I was hoping I would be feeling very "gung ho" about the whole idea of getting healthy and happy, but instead I am just feeling unmotivated, discouraged, and negative.

In an effort to be totally honest about my journey, I am going to try not to hold anything back.  I have been making excuses--to myself and others--for years.  YEARS. And, in the spirit of full disclosure, I have to stop doing that--to myself and others. So, when I say I feel like shit, I really feel like shit.  And at this moment, I am struggling to find something positive to say about myself, my life (which, from the outside looking in, is pretty darn good), my job, and my future.

Part of being depressed (not just sad, or down, but clinically) is a lack of motivation to do anything, even something that I know is going to make me feel better.  Im lacking motivation to do much of anything--even naming this blog seems like too much at this moment. I think that it is also okay to admit that things arent perfect for me right now.  Sometimes it is hard to understand for other people, but I am trying to be gentle on myself and say, "Hey Britt, it is OKAY to not be okay right now."