Motivation

I did not lose any thing this week--unless you count my sanity.  My week was a mess, thrown off by a last minute two day training for work, a vet trip for Chipper to be neutered, and a really weird Wednesday night when a woman came to our door seeking shelter from a crazy ex that was chasing her (long story). I am the kind of person that really likes to plan and know whats coming.  I also recharge by being alone, doing my own thing. I didnt get much of that this week, which threw me off and made me feel a little irritable. It also wasnt conducive to eating well or going to the gym. So, I am glad I didnt gain weight this week and I am ready to get back to my routine this coming week.

I was thinking about motivation.  Lately, this is where I have been struggling.  I feel very little motivation to do much of anything--some days, going to work is hard, much less finding the motivation or energy to cook, clean, or work out.  So I wanted to list some of the things that should help motivate me to reach my goals.

1. Feeling healthy!
          The one thing that I have noticed is that when I eat better, I feel better (DUH).  But, the instances        of my stomach hurting have really decreased, because I am not putting as much junk in my body as I was. Even if I screw up, or in some cases, dont have a choice about what I eat, I am still making more conscious choices than I was.

2. Looking better!
         Not here yet--not even close, but a big part of my motivation comes from looking better.  I want to feel comfortable in my clothes.  I have SO many in my closet that I cant wear because they dont fit or are too uncomfortable.  And, shopping is NO fun anymore at all.  It is the part of the day that I dread the most--having to decide what to wear and knowing it is all going to be uncomfortable and ill-fitting. I want to look in the mirror and think, "yeah! this looks good!"

3. 10-Year High School Reunion!
          I recently got the Facebook notification that we are on standby for details about our 10 year reunion.  This is motivation for two reasons: I want to look good when I see people I havent seen for so long, and, the big one for me, I want to feel good. I want to be able to wear whatever I want and not have to dread going because of how I look or feel.  I want to be able to put on any outfit that I choose and not fight the battle in my mind and get bent out of shape because I am uncomfortable in my own skin.

Those are the big ones at the moment.  I want to do this for me.  Not for my fellow class of 2004-ers, not for my friends, not even for my boyfriend.  I want it for ME.