My boss asked me this today. My response: "...I dont know."
And, the sad part is that I really dont know. I mean, I smile many times a day, most days. But that wasnt the question. I can read between the lines (I'm a therapist, after all); what he wanted to know was, "What motivates and inspires you and makes you truly happy?"
The question stunned me into silence and almost brought me to tears. I struggled to find the answer and stammered, "I dont know" several more times before I came up with some semblance of one. I was silent on my drive home, too, processing the question.
What makes me happy? What motivates me to get up in the morning? What really lights my fire? I threw out a few thoughts to see if it fit:
My job? Sometimes, but not always.
Adventures? Yes, it is exciting, but only temporarily.
Trying new things? It is fun and makes good memories.
Working out? I like the feeling after, but it certainly isnt the reason I get up in the morning.
Eating? The bane of my existence, unfortunately.
My friends and family? Sure, I love them.
So, then what is it? And, more importantly, how do I find it?
I feel stuck. I dont know which direction to go, even though I know I need to go one way or the other. I cant decide where I'd rather be. I dont know what makes me truly happy.
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